My clients have been asking me for more writing and I agree that it’s time to share more of myself with you. First of all, I want to thank each of you for believing in me. I now have a steady base of regulars and am filling up my schedule days in advance. The client who I wrote about once before said, “If anything, I am here to tell you to always believe in yourself.” Your continued support and presence in my office not only affirms my work but helps me solidify that belief within me. I do believe. I believe in magic and miracles and witness both of these things every day. Through my own experience and practice I have not only cleared the way to success in all realms of my life but I have grown, expanded and realized more of myself every day. I am living breathing proof that this energy thing does work.
Here is a glimpse into my latest adventure.
Being an empath comes with waves of reality, peaks and valleys, lightness and dark. I no longer believe in evil, just that which has become disconnected from source. It’s an interesting experience being able to see energy because I walk around all day every day seeing people’s joy and also seeing their pain. I have had to learn the lines between interfering in destiny and divine flow moving through me. I was blessed this past 4th of July weekend to get to embark on an adventure with my partner to see the 50th anniversary and last shows performed by the Dead in Chicago. We drove out under the energy of the full moon and I attempted to connect with him in the best way I knew how in the moment. His reaction let me know right away that something wasn’t right in the energy. We instantly were at ends and I went on an inward journey to explore what was happening. I recognized my own heart centered defense and noticed that instead of stating clearly what it was that I desired, I went about trying to get what I wanted from my old way of patterning. When he didn’t show up exactly as I expected it caused dissonance in the field, our communication became at odds and my attempt at “connecting” turned into a road trip filled with tense silence. Now this doesn’t happen frequently with us so when it does it can be intense and thought consuming. After taking a moment to come out of our defenses and have a heart centered talk, we were able to find our way back to the source of the issue and once we reconnected to source and ourselves, we were able to once again come back to one another.
The next day we entered the grounds of Soldier Stadium. My empath sensitivities were in over drive. There were people EVERYWHERE and even through attempts to reign in my usually expanded field, I still felt the press of claustrophobia and potential suffocation. In a crowd that big, with emotions that high, it seemed as though any step away from conscious heart centered decision making would have caused a riot. I got to watch as a family of five who posted up at the stadium entrance side by side, holding a sign that said, “This family believes in miracles” crossed off the numbers on their sign one by one from needing 5 tickets, to 4, and then cheers went up in the crowd as they received two more tickets, 3, 2…the time during the gift of tickets 4 and 5 was an intense experience for me. Every time I glanced over allowing my field to connect with theirs, I felt on the verge of tears, excited and anxious energy caused a constriction in my belly and I was filled with anticipation (so not my own). Finally, relief came with more cheers as they received their last miracle and 5th ticket to see the show.
The energy from the crowd was colorful. There were people everywhere. I can only imagine what it must feel like to walk out on stage to 70,000 fans ecstatic to see you. The first show offered me one of the most beautiful experiences of my life. I got to feel the energy of the band and its music as god simply relaying a frequency and message down to us here on Earth. During their performance of Drums, I got to experience what felt to me, like a global activation, linking us here on Earth, straight to the dimensions above. I stood there in my power thinking to myself, I can’t be the only one that hears this stuff right? After drums ended, I became fully activated and my hands lit up with energy vibrating through them. We had been in connection with the pair behind us, an older gentleman with a younger man who may have been his son. As my hands ignited into healing mode, I felt a pull to the man behind me and heard spirit whisper in my ear “You can heal him”. I tried everything in my power to ignore it, feeling a dilemma of spirit and a struggle between not wanting to meddle in his process and knowing that I had been activated with divine frequency. So I danced on and let some time pass consistently glancing over my shoulder at the man who was stooped over in his chair, head hanging over knees and appearing to energetically fade away before my eyes. Dance, glance, ignore, spirit chiming in frequently with, “You can heal him, he’s been praying for a miracle, you are providing it”, dance, glance. After a while, I consulted with my partner who acknowledged himself that he could feel the pull between us and that it felt like “dead weight” on my arm. I kept up my routine of denial for a while longer until I couldn’t take the vibration in my body knowing that I would never be able to enjoy to show until I listened to spirits call. So, I walked over the man and said, “I am an energy healer and I am feeling called to work on you. May I offer you some healing touch?” I had to repeat the statement one more time but he acknowledged yes as his answer and I began to work in his field. My experience of touching him was one of intense pain and beauty. It felt as though he had stooped over, in avoidance of these parts of himself for a long time and I could feel as all he was holding began to melt away layer by layer as I placed my hands on each area. After speaking to my partner about it afterwards (who beautifully sent us loving supportive energy through the experience, much gratitude, felt it) he shared his experience of being one where it seemed as though the man was leaning away from my hands, resisting the touch I was offering. My experience of that moment was of him deeply weeping in my arms, acknowledging the pain that he felt. I had to resist the urge to hold him like a baby and felt that it might be damaging to his pride if I did that, so I simply held my hands over the tensest areas until I felt the divine frequency lift and leave me. I then thanked him and quietly walked away. Now I do not know what happened to that man as him and his son left soon after I finished. All I can say is that I am glad that I followed the energy because I truly feel that that is what I am here to do and why I have been so successful lately. I listen when spirit speaks and I act when spirit says to act. True giving, is not needing anything in return and in this case, this includes affirmation or proof.
I ended up connecting with my partner that night, and for the rest of the trip, more than I ever could have imagined was possible. The dense, and tense energy we experienced in the car ride over in our individual defenses was gone and in its place a renewed sense of love and spiritual connection. THEN, as if seeing the Grateful Dead wasn’t affirmation enough that I live a blessed life, today, one of you gave me a gift. Spiritual affirmation, (whose name is the same as a guide of mine and also of an arch angel) came to me in human flesh as a new client who after his first session, offered me an exchange for my 10 session package. Now my relationship to this guide is a long story for another time but the sign was undeniable to me. This was one more symbol and miracle presented to me on this Earth journey. Now a few of you have bought my 10 package deals and I love and appreciate you just as much, those were affirming moments in my life as well, this moment was just so synchronistic and the flow was here now which is why this is the one I chose to write about. You each have touched my heart and contributed so much to my life experience I can’t thank you enough for being willing to show up and transform yourselves and your lives and for the opportunity to be a part of it. I simply wanted to share a tale of a time, living as my spirited self as often times you question what it must be like. This is who I am, this is what I do, and I am so grateful for each of you. Thank you for tuning in.